Dec 20, 2006
My God, where did the year go? And what did I do with it?
I distinctly remember that parts of 2006 were really lousy -- with some parts labeled "this is a time of transition" and other parts labeled "this just sucks." But to save my life, I cannot remember the details.
I wonder about that lack of facility in remembering unpleasant history. I do remember that some things happened, but I don't remember exactly what. This seems to be my nature. I wonder how much of this is a good thing and how much a bad? And how much of this nature was acquired on purpose and how much just happened to be there. And I wonder if this is a little bit odd for a Scorpio(!)
"Doomed to repeat it"? How about you?
I think that's why I barely remember most of high school.
(also a Scorpio)
Posted by: pinky | Dec 20, 2006 8:41:44 AM
Failure to precisely recall painful times is a very important survival mechanism, Phil.
Imagine having perfect recall of the worst pain you've ever experienced. Shit, who wants that?
Posted by: Barry Campbell | Dec 20, 2006 9:24:45 AM
I find that my brain has glossed over many bits of unpleasantness in my memory. Which is perfectly fine with me. Maybe it's that we don't often like to dwell on things that suck/hurt, while we do like to re-think-over happy/fun experiences?
Posted by: Grace | Dec 29, 2006 1:34:42 PM
Sometimes in the midst of (or at the end of) a particularly bad experience, I force myself to record it all, all of the details, so that I don't forget it and repeat the same mistake. At least in my case, the self-brain-washing erases memories of other people behaving poorly. The unnerving part is rereading the pages, the details, the dialogue, twelve months later, and still not remembering any of it. I agree with Barry, it's an important survival mechanism, but sometimes that part of the brain can be over-zealous . . . and although the ego has been allowed to survive intact, one repeats the same mistake. And forgets and repeats. I record, if it's a particularly unpleasant mistake, to avoid my own little groundhog day hell.
Posted by: e | Dec 30, 2006 8:53:14 PM